“You can’t do that.”
“You can’t do this.”
Well why not? That’s the question we all ask ourselves, isn’t it? Why are we so often told we can’t do something?
No matter how old you are, it seems to me, that this statement never leaves us.
I’ve gotten to the point where I’m so tired of people telling me I can’t do something where I will actually speak up and ask why. Before, I’d usually just let the other person run their mouth to give them the satisfaction, but I’m sick of hearing the same stuff all the time.
There are always going to be obstacles. I know that. I also know that life won’t be easy, but I don’t care. I want to live my life the way I choose. I’ve always had people tell me what to do or what classes to take. I know that’s the life of being a high school student, but really? That’s your excuse? Pathetic.
After my parent’s divorce I learned that you have to be a fighter. I know I’m not the best, but I try. I have mental breakdowns all the time, but I don’t like to show it. People ask me how I’m so calm. Truth is, I’m not. I’m dying on the inside.
I tell people why I’m so stressed. Their response? Oh, that’s normal. No it’s not. Is it normal to hear students laugh about having meltdowns the night before? No. What is normal about people covering up pain with laughter? It’s scary. We continue to do it though. We don’t want to seem weak.
I’ve had many adults in my life tell me many things. You question what one says due to what you heard from another and you get in trouble for back-talking or being too smart.
I use to never speak up. Everyone told me I was a push-over. Fine then. I changed. Maybe not a whole lot, but I did. I still put those I care about before me, but I question things now. What happens when I do? I get yelled at for being disrespectful.
I’m just so tired. So tired of being told I can’t. Who are they to tell me what I can and can’t do? I have to listen for now, but in the end isn’t your own happiness most important?
I get so frustrated with society nowadays. Everyone is pointing in different directions. I’m trying to please everyone, but I’m just tying myself up in a deadly knot.
I’m not saying you should rebel against the people looking out for you, but ultimately the choice is yours. You can let people walk all over you and control your life, but that’s your choice. You can do anything. The real person holding you back is only yourself.